ABSOLUTEFUTURE

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 04:25:55 GMT

So college starts Saturday. I am a mix between nervous and excited. I just cant wait until I am all settled in.

I have been doing a lot of things that I have been regretting lately. I dont want that to be the case. I feel like Im drifting from some very important people in my life.

I feel like there are a few people that I know will ALWAYS be there for me. These people are emma, aaron, tristan, brittany, rick and katie. If I ever need anything they are there for me, even if we havent seen each other in a long time. Thank you for that.

Mon, 04 Aug 2008 01:27:26 GMT

So an update on my life, for the people that actually read this:

I am going to Framingham State College on August 30th. I think i want to be a photography major which they do not offer there so I am probably going to end up transfering. But either way I am really excited. I got my room-mate the other day but I contacted her and apparently she transfered. So now I have no clue who my room-mate is going to be.

I am having a great summer for the most part. I went to camp for two weeks and made $138. It sounds bad but I also had free room and board. There have been a few boys here and there but nothing serious. I don't want it to be serious though because I am going to college in the fall. I have a month left. That's so weird to say.

I feel like I have a defined group of friends. I love all of them and I love hanging out with them. We always find something fun to do. It's so weird reconnecting with old friends. I like it but at the same time it's completely different.

Overall, that's my life up to date. I might update in another six months or so. Haha

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 03:10:22 GMT

i've never been so sure of something in my life.

i am happy. all of the college applications are in. waiting is the only hard part.

my life has been a blur of good and bad things.

i am going on a cruise to the bahamas, puerto rico and st. thomas on sunday.

i remember when i was young, people would tell me that i would be graduating in 2008. it seemed so far away. i didn't think that it would go by that fast. less than 7 months.

i lost my license for speeding over the summer. i just got a notice in the mail that says i lose it for 90 days, i have to pay 500 dollars to reinstate it, take 2 anger management courses and retake my road test. i can't wait until i'm 18 and i don't have to deal with things like this.

Fri, 16 Nov 2007 02:59:20 GMT

I know I never update. I recently viewed my previous entries and realized how sentimental these entries are to me. So here I begin, hopefully, again. This is my life up to date. There are many things that I could talk about but this shows a brief summary.

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 02:22:02 GMT

I have been in this trance for about a year or so. I don't know what it is. I have now been realizing who I am. I guess that's what senior year is for. This trance is showing me that I have been only looking into the future and have forgotten my past.

I have recently been looking at old pictures of many of my old close friends. I have been so completely focused on this 'trying to get into college' thing that nothing else is important. I finally have the friend group that I don't need to be someone else around. I can be myself and they can accept me. I have grown so much in the past year. I have become an adult, or at least what I consider one. I am thinking about my future and getting amazing grades.

I really want to go to Emmanuel College in Boston. It is my top choice. I also like Umass Amherst, Umass Dartmouth, Northeastern, Plymouth State and Roger Williams. Emmanuel is a great fit for me. It's small, liberal arts and in the city. I just can't wait to move out and figure out things on my own, not that I haven't been already.

I can't believe I am writing in my livejournal. I want to keep up with it. I know that no one is probably going to read this but it's nice to read back into previous chapters in my life. It's amusing to see who I used to be in old pictures and words that I have written. I have become who I want to be to the point where I am content.

I am happy spending most of my weekends in Boston with Brittany + Rick or at Boston college with Ricky or in CT with Amanda. Senior year is going very well. I have a good group of friends.

Something that has made me come to a realization is the loss of Steve. I will always remember and miss him. He was such a great kid. I can't believe he is gone. It's so hard to take in sometimes. Imagine knowing someone since sixth grade and knowing that you will never see him again. At least I am religious and I know that he will always be with me and everyone in my class. Rest in peace Steve.

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 23:10:35 GMT

Remember that time i had a livejournal? Wow, i completely forgot about it.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 18:28:38 GMT

So I'm pretty much done with livejournal. I just don't have time to go on it anymore. Plus it's pointless to check it because only like four people update theirs anymore anyways.

I mean, I might update it if I feel like it. Just don't expect it.

My summer starts friday when I go up to New Hampshire for the whole summer. I am going to be there June 23rd-August 28th! I am so excited.

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 05:03:21 GMT

It was my birthday today & i had a great day! Well, actually yesterday because now it's one a.m. but I'm finally 17!

Sat, 26 May 2007 19:17:19 GMT

I am just now realizing how much I have always took the beach of granted. It is amazing and I am so grateful to live five minutes away from it.

I have been so busy lately and I am not complaining at all.

I need to live these next few weeks up because I am going to be gone for nine weeks starting on June 23rd. It already feels like summer which is upsetting because I get out of school June 20th.

I saw Bright Eyes on Thursday with some amazing people and it was very good.

Wed, 23 May 2007 01:31:35 GMT

Sat, 12 May 2007 00:36:23 GMT

I am so happy as of late. I am getting my Honda Civic on Monday! It's grey and a 2004. If you know me at all, you would know that I have wanted a Honda Civic since 8th grade! I am getting it thanks to my grandmother.

I feel like there is so much I have to do/that has to get done before the summer. There is prom next weekend, I am reading "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest", Spring Fest, my 17th birthday and many many more things. I am excited for prom and I am glad I am now going with Brendan. I know we will have fun together.

Last weekend was a ridiculous mess of drama. I feel like I have had a drama-free life for a long time and lately there has been a lot. I don't know why. I am so glad I am getting away for nine weeks.

Sat, 12 May 2007 00:20:58 GMT

Fri, 04 May 2007 00:23:46 GMT

I think Thursdays are my favorite day of the week now. I have play rehearsal, then I go to the gym with my mom for our double exercise class and Grey's Anatomy is on.

I am currently really happy. The school year is almost over. I can't wait for camp. I can't wait for the play. I can't wait for prom. I can't wait for my birthday (17, weird).

Brittany and Rick moved to Brighton which is a good thing. I am going to miss seeing them as much as I did but I will still go up there a lot.

SATS saturday, yuck.

And I guess I am going to The Ordinary Summer concert at Knights Of Columbus tomorrow. It's going to be weird. I haven't been there in sooooo long.

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 15:48:30 GMT

Most of my friends are away for vacation. I have seen so many movies.

-300
-Marie Antonette
-Disturbia
-Pursuit Of Happyness
-Stranger Than Fiction

I liked all of them except 300. I just don't really like war movies.

I am now a vegetarian.

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 00:47:43 GMT

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 23:49:49 GMT

I went to Taking Back Sunday/Underoath/Armor For Sleep last night in Lowell and surprisingly had the best time.

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 15:19:00 GMT

On friday Aaron and I went to Providence to see Owen and Rocky Votalato at the Living Room. And last night it was at the Great Scott in Allston and we had tickets and everything. It ended up being 18 plus. People are so rude. So we sold the tickets and took the train back to Braintree and saw Reign Over Me. It was absolutely amazing. I cried so much. I had a lot of fun this weekend despite the few flaws.

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 23:02:02 GMT

These pictures include The Museum Of Fine Arts field trip, two camp reunions, random days with Rick and Brittany, etc.

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:41:49 GMT

I miss last spring/summer.
I miss not having a job.
I miss my sister.
I miss Calumet.
I miss art class last year.
I miss my family.
I miss drama festival.
I miss not having pressure about SAT's and college.
I miss Spring Fest last year.
I miss the seniors that graduated last year.
I miss being young.
I miss too many people that I couldn't count.
I miss taking pictures.
I miss most of the L&S.
I miss camp reunions.
I miss The Early November already.
I miss the beach.

It's weird looking back a year ago and think about how much you've changed.

I am going to start updating a lot more.

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 18:46:10 GMT

Now that it is spring I suddenly have the motivation to do so many things. I am always in a good mood lately.

I want to start taking a lot of pictures again because I realized how much they mean in the future.

I can't wait for camp. It's going to be weird being a counselor but I have a feeling it is going to be the best summer of my life.

I love all my friends so much.

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 02:17:01 GMT

"We would like to announce that at end of our current headlining tour, The Early November will be taking a indefinite hiatus.

Through out the past six years we have released two LP's, two EP's, played over one thousand shows, seen six wonderful countries, have met thousands of great people, made life-long friends, and have broken countless amounts of instruments. We have done more than we have ever thought possible for a small rock band out of southern New Jersey. We are very proud and very grateful of every moment we have spent as The Early November.

Incase any of you are wondering, this is not a result of anything one can consider negative. No fighting, no one hates each other, no one has a substance abuse problem...none of the typical baggage that is usually carried along with rock bands taking a hiatus. The situation is actually much the opposite. We all love and care for one another tremendously. We're as close of friends as we have ever been and, as long as the five of us exist, we will continue to be so. This "hiatus" or "break" is just a result of time and life. As we grow older, priorities change. We've decided we need to take some time and see that life isn't all dirty rock clubs, rest stops at 2 am, and long distance phone calls. We have to be where we haven't been in the past six years; with our friends, family, and loved ones.

We hope this isn't completely somber news to anyone of you. We want to view it almost in the same way many cultures view the passing of a friend or loved one. Not to mourn but to celebrate their life and memory. In our small way, we'd like to do the same. We invite you to come and send off something that has meant so much to the five of us for so long. We may or may not being coming back. Who knows. But for now, all we can say is "Thank You." "Thank You," to everyone who was or has been a part of making our dreams a reality. Most importantly, "Thank You" to every single TEN fan. We hope you guys understand.

We truly love all of you.

- Ace, Joe, Jeff, Serg, Bill

The Early November"

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 01:08:51 GMT

It's funny how things can change so drastically. I have been having the best week. I am doing good in school. I had the best weekend last weekend including seeing someone I haven't seen in 4 years. The boy situation is looking up. I am overall in a great mood. I think it is the amazing weather and the hope of spring.

States this weekend is going to be great, I can tell.

& I have a field trip Friday to the Museum of Fine Arts.

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 02:10:08 GMT

I don't think I've felt this shitty since 7th or 8th grade.

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 20:46:05 GMT

So this vacation was alright. I went on college tours with my mom. We got along for the most part. I have been working less and less and States is next week. I am so excited for States, hopefully it will be as good as the previous two years.

On Tuesday I went to Northeastern. I fell in love with it. I know I would never get in but it is exactly what I would want in a school. It is in Boston. There is a T right on campus. It has a good theater program, etc. After Northeastern I went to Salem State and I hated it. It was in the middle of no where. There weren't many people there. The guy hosting the tour said that everyone goes home on the weekend. There basically wasn't anything good about it.

Wednesday I went to Emmanuel and again, fell in love. The only bad part is that there are mostly girls. It's something like 70% girls and 30% guys. It's not a bad thing though because you can take classes at Simmons, Mass Art, Wheelock, Wentworth and another one but I forget. Then we went to Umass Dartmouth. I liked it a lot also. I just feel like it is far away from home. You can have a car there as a freshman though so that's good.

Friday I went to BU and just left. I hated it. It is the biggest "campus" ever. If you can even call it a campus. It's all on the street.

I think I am going to try for Emmanuel. I loved it. I got a good vibe. It's in Boston. It's small. I think I have a good chance in getting in also.

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 19:47:03 GMT

Second year in a row without a Valentine. I think Freshman year was the only year I ever had a boyfriend at the time. Today was just awful, the weather especially. I almost got into a car accident getting out of my drive way this morning. I want to do something tonight but I just don't feel like driving anywhere in fear that I will die. I'm just going to sit at home and eat, a lot.

I am just so sick of being single. I was happy with it for a long time but now it's lost all of it's fun. I want a boyfriend and to be happy. I just wish it wasn't so complicated. Brittany is the only one that understands me.

Lost is my only hope in having an okay day.